Perhaps Mary may be to you an ally as you face your own impossibilities to find the freedom to say yes to what is clearly and unavoidably being asked of you in life just now, to say, like Mary, “use me, take me, call me as you will.” 

To listen to the podcast (13:52) from the Brothers of The Society of St. John the Evangelist (SSJE) Monastery in Cambridge, MA: https://www.ssje.org/4.audio/12days/day9.mp3

Blessings, my friend
Agatha